"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle" - Plato
I saw this quote today and it made me stop and think. I've been sitting here all morning, wallowing and thinking unkind thoughts regarding this evening when I shouldv'e been doing housework. I came across it quite by accident but it's made me sit up and think. I've probably brought on most of my lonliness myself. Have I really been that bitter over the last two years that I've been unconsiously pushing people away, when these are the people I should be cherishing? Am I really going to allow someone elses bitterness influence the way I lead my life? I now have to take a stand and not allow this person any more power because this is exactly it: I am allowing it.
I'm still dreading this evening a little, but I'm going to embrace it, see it as a challenge. I need to put on a dress, a pair of high heels and keep my head held high.
Well, in other news, the bunny race is now officially cancelled for the time being. I lost my job at the end of May so all security has flooded out the window. Where have the days gone where when you decided to have a family, you just did it? *sigh*. It just seems that everyone around me is doing it or just done it. I've said it before, but I never in a million years thought I would hit 30 and still be childless. Sometimes I wonder if this yearning stems back to my second baby I lost when I was 19 and five months gone. Maternal feelings kicked in but they never checked out. It's so hard sometimes and not something easily explained. I guess I'll have to keep practising patience along with everything else right now.

reading the saying this morning opened my eyes, too. i fight that feeling every day. luckily, i live with someone who naturally instills that quality. i want to grow up to be just like her. i hope your evening went well. always hold your head up high, chrissie. you have people who love and admire you!
ReplyDeleteAwww, Insepia, just saw your post, sorry! It can be a constant battle at times, I know.
ReplyDeleteWell, the evening was .... not a success! lol. I did dress up - dress and make-up for once, but was still made to feel like the "outsider" whenever D left the room. I seriously doubt any of them are aware of the impact this is having which is a shame.
Anyway, got to keep up the mantra "Bee kind!"