Treading Water

It's been a while since my last post. I don't feel as if anything has happened of note to write about. Like the title suggests, I'm just treading water - I have no job, and there are few prospects out there at the moment due to the recession. I have no interests that I'm following through on as everything seems to cost money and to be honest, those that don't I don't feel as if I have the energy for. I just don't want to do anything and feel tired at the end of the day from doing nothing. I do the bare essentials at home now and even that is becoming somewhat of an effort. I have Del and I love him, dearly. I just don't know where my get up and go, my drive, went.

I guess being so far away from family and friends is now severely beginning to impact on my life. They're like the air that I breathe and I feel as if I'm slowly being suffocated with their distance. I don't want to feel or act like this but it's almost as if it's out of my hands and I have no control over it. The only control I have is over food which is slowly becoming an issue again.

Back to treading water.